And So We Must Commence

DO you ever get that feeling like things might end up being okay but you're really apprehensive cos you feel like you're gonna fall into a trap and then things are going to go horribly wrong? well I'm not necessarily feeling like that but ya know its getting there--No I lie -I don't know I'm sooo confused now

So yes its been a while since I've written and I don't know I'm just busy and everything I want to say cant be said in a half hour and no I'm not talking about that---okay fine maybe I am a little

Basically I've had to deal with alot of nothing and that's the problem --I make issues for myself and I blow things out of proportion and I get irritable-speaking of irritable I wish everyone would stop saying that I look sad!! gosh okay?!! I'm not depressed yet I get asked every day maybe I have alot I'm thinking about maybe I don't know how I'm going to do my English project maybe I'm excited to go to homecoming but still unsure because I cant stand it anymore? Maybe I'm going insane MAYBE I just cant stand school and some people sometimes and sure maybe I do get a little sad every now and then because I have to deal with things but even if I am is asking me if I'm sad going to fix anything? I DON'T THINK SO....

and I love my friends GOSH do I love you guys you make my world go round and I try I really do try to be honest with you but when I do I don't want sympathy--I despise sympathy when I'm trying to be real I mean not always but I don't need this whole AWWW yeah no thank you

And dance... boy does dance make me tired but I couldn't live without it and I'm rediscovering why I like it and that makes my day..

AND why is it that people have to be so rude? Gosh and can I ever get a good picture of myself? And why is it that I want a good picture of myself isn't that a little narcissistic? And why does A.P. euro take up so much fricken time and do I have to be ignored every day of my life--now I don't consider myself an invisible person but I swear to you at least once a day I'm talking to my imaginary friend because my family and friends move on before I'm through

My room is a mess and I'm a tired wreck so why is it that I felt hopeful in the car I DON'T KNOW

and I'm excited for my Halloween party I want to feel human again because lately I've felt kinda robotic and I get left with no energy which is why I must depart now to SLEEP and forget whatever I wrote here then read it later and be like "OMG I actually wrote that??"

-danica