These Changes

hello

life isn't the easiest right now. theres kinda a lot of situations going on around me and i am invested in each one and i dont know what to think. you know those issues with friends and other people and that girl that cant get a hold of her life. well this girl is holding on but she cant really grab anything stable right now. not even herself. theres not a lot of people to hold her and check up on her and shes not even sure if she wants that right now. it was going fine and now its not going as fine. i'm typing in a mess, a problem, both mentally and physically. sometimes being strong enough to pull yourself through means you have to and you have to prove but sometimes its not enough and you arent the greatest and you get upstaged and everyone gravitates towards them leaving you asking "hello?" i need a balance. i wish things could happen that really just cant and it hurts to be told that again and again but i am still wishing and still being told no and it hurts...it hurts real bad...

--Danica

APRIL 19

Hello!!

SO my day wasn't that bad. It was rather pleasant even though it was the first day back after spring break. This morning I went to the chiropractor to get my lower back fixed and MAN! did it feel so much better. Then I went to school my french class wasn't too bad we reviewed and Ms.Hart even made me laugh a couple times so it was enjoyable. My dance class is always fun though we just talked about the show and didn't dance. My English class is always really interesting and we are working on a poem project so I will be doing that in a little bit the only thing is that I cant find my grammar book--Have you seen it? cos I sure haven't. Chemistry was a bit over my head as usual. History was a lot of review and can you believe it?!The AP test is in two and a half weeks away!!! So scary. But I will be prepared is what I keep telling myself. Math was math I did my homework we have a district test tomorrow what else is new? ANNNDD I am working on getting voice lessons and I am going back to dance tomorrow so I am SOO excited. Yay so that s a day in the life of moi :)

if i could figure it out

--Danica

HI SARAH!!!

Hi SARAH!

so i am really excited for our blogging party. For those not in the know one of my good friends sarah @sashepard.blogspot.com started a blog! (you should go check it out--I already gave you the link what more do you need? ) And we have made an agreement to keep writing on our blog to stay in touch since we live too far away from each other. So I am excited to get back to blogging and I like to imagine sarah is excited about blogging so lets get this started!! :)

LOVE YOU SARAH!!!

--Danica

Is It really

hello.

how are you? I hope you're good. Do you come here often? I do. well. Often enough for me my visits are interesting-probably intriguing to you hence why you come to see if I've come back and left a note. Thank you. That pleasant conversationalism is just that pleasant and I sort of enjoy it..

When I think of elegance I think of my grandmother--when I smell a lovely perfume or hear of a business cocktail party something fun but delightful-I think of her.

When I think of times before ours-not ancient but separate where girls were trained and taught manners and knew how to be a lady -I think of my great-grandmother

When I think of tea-parties I remember when I was little reading raggedy ann books and deciding that I was Marcella and I would have a nice teas party with my dolls.I think of running through rose gardens. Remembering the multiple times I have run through huge rose gardens hiding under some of the large bushes watching the sun travel-being pleasing and warm--I remember one day I did such a think and I felt that I was in a Monet painting---even at 10 I had loved his work and the happiness I felt could be reflected in such beauty.

When I think of traveling I think of my Aunt Norma-I haven't mentioned her here-she was a beautiful person

I think of traveling across the world to exotic places to the amazon and africa to india and china-I want to go to Europe and see how they run things over there.

We had callbacks yesterday-I got nervous and scared and I almost started crying in the middle of my song but I didn't stop... They cut me but its okay in the sense that I can probably get the flying monkey part because I killed in dance auditions. I just feel so embarrassed because everyone heard me sing-and I didn't do that well and I don 't want people to go away with that as my impression--I can sing better.. but marlene said I did good and she thought I was having fun with it even though I was almost crying but she couldn't tell but I'll go with that.I was so proud to be friends with asya,sarah,jordan,alex,and pavel--they were so amazing and I love them all---And I must thank Olive for making me feel happy she truly has talent and she's so feel-good!

to have you see me

-danica